Why Do I Talk So Much?

I’ve noticed that I talk a lot. About virtually anything I can. Anything that has happened in my day, or that I dreamt about, or that I thought about, and I will tell anyone who will listen. 
I often wonder why this is. When I’m alone I think about how I don’t really want to talk to anyone. I don’t want to let people in and let people know me, but then I let that exact thing happen. I let in strangers, and yet I am usually so silent around those who know me best; my friends and family. 
Am I a narcissist that just wants to hear my own voice? Do I have an incessive need to be the center of attention?  Do I think my thoughts, experiences and opinions are so important that they must be shared with everyone?
No. I don’t think it’s any of those reasons. I think I don’t really want to talk to people and that is why I do. 
If I talk to people, if I always have something to interject, maybe they will think I care about the topic and choose to open up to me the way I do with others. If I talk to people they will think I am happy, they won’t know I am struggling sometimes with my own demons and didn’t even want to get out of bed this morning, or that I have to Google what they are talking about so I can say something intelligent and not feel like an idiot for having no idea what the topic is when so many people clearly know what it is about. 
Maybe that’s why I chose the career I did in Massage Therapy. I get to be one on one with so many people and learn so many things, but I also don’t have to say a word for a whole hour if I didn’t want to or if they didn’t want me to. 
I have come across many people that I think suffer from this same affliction, some speak like I do and some yell so that they are sure to be heard, and I’m sure you the reader will also have come across these people or know someone like that right now. Remember they will probably go home and wonder why they are the way they are, and they will be embarrassed, but they won’t change. Because it is more embarrassing to admit maybe you’re initiating your behaviour as a defence mechanism for something deeper, which would be admitting you may have a problem and potentially come across to not as strong as you have perceived. 
You will lead a lonely, empty, half-life if you don’t accept your possible flaws and work on them. You should always be working towards the best possible you. 



Why Do I Talk So Much?

Wednesday Witchstagram – _.aura.creux._

Today’s Wednesday Witchstagram is _.aura.creux._ !!

Do you have a “name” for your craft? Or do you follow a certain path?
I practice an eclectic mix of the wiccan, hermetican, and thelemic rites of witchcraft, though I study all rites of witchcraft including leviathan satanism and satanism proper, freemasonry, gnosticism, hermetism, the old religion, etc.
How did you find your path? What called you to it?
I don’t think I found my path, at all. It found me; that is to say, it was a natural progression from the key events in my life.
Are you open about it with friends/family?
Yes, I am; though my family has seen my instagram, none of them have really asked me about it. My mother knows that I practice witchcraft, which she experimented in the past with.
Why or why not?
I’m open about it because we live in a day and age free of religious prosecution (for the most part), and by being open I can learn more from other witches who cross my path.
Are there any other crafts, or paths, that you’re interested in exploring?
All of them. I wish to become an incredibly learned scholar of the arcane arts, in all their forms.
What is your favorite thing to do? (Eh; Tarot, crystal work, herb work, or whatever)
I have found that I’m an incredibly powerful enchanter, so enchantments, though draining, are where most of my magical energy goes. I do also so Tatot readings, but I’m nowhere near a professional level.
Do you practice with others or solitaire?
I’ve been high priest in two covens, but nowadays I mostly practice solitarily.
Do you have a favorite author that is your go to for inspiration?
Not particularly, being fairly eclectic I have a large library of wiccan and hermetican works, in addition to much of Crowley’s writing.
Do you have a favorite Instagram/Tumblr/Website you go to for knowledge or inspiration?
Though not a wiccan blog, gaywiccans is a fantastic source for a very open minded page focused on the LGBT community run by a wonderful witch by the name of Alexis
Are you willing to allow others to reach out to you to ask you questions?
Of course! My instagram is _.aura.creux._ for anyone looking to ask questions about any rite of witchcraft, be it wiccan or otherwise.
Where do you hail from? *optional*
A little town by the name of Charlton, Massachusetts, about 50 miles from Salem and 45 from Boston, out near Worcester. 
Is there anything else you’d like to share?
I would very much like to become a more active contributor to the Instagram wiccan community, and furthermore to thank you for giving me this opportunity to do so. Blessed be!

Wednesday Witchstagram – _.aura.creux._

A Journey in Health; Depression and Tattoos

I would like to start off this post with a disclaimer:
Massage Therapy is a medical course that teaches you everything about the body right from the cellular level and up, and in Canada the education and regulation of the practice is very strict. 

The information following in this post is all encompassing from; my personal training as an RMT, information given to me by my MD, and my own experiences. 

The thoughts you are about to read are very personal and may be disturbing to some readers. 


I have depression. Diagnosed from my MD and I am taking medication for it. 

I believe I have probably been suffering from this since I was at least 16 but at that age you know nothing about mental disorders and find it very hard to accept having one. The all encompassing need to be normal and liked really pushes you as a teen to keep anything “abnormal” or may be seen as such, to yourself. 
At 16, I started cutting myself. I’m not really sure where I got the idea. I never watched anything that depicted it, never listened to music that sang about it, never read anything that described it. It was at first my wrists, but the scratches became hard to hide, and so I turned to my thighs. High enough in the summer to hide them when wearing shorts or mimicking cat scratches, and anywhere I wanted in the winter because I was always wearing pants. 
Now, let me say this. I have never felt the urge to end my life. People hear about cutting and they immediately think that I must be suicidal. I have never had that thought or that urge. So people always ask, “why would you do it then?”. Back then the answer was “I don’t know, it feels good.” but my truth was that I have depression. Depression is most commonly thought of this intense sadness. You can have depression the emotional state, and clinical depression the mental disorder. You can feel depressed without having depression. 
Depression is for me the devoid of feeling. Anything. Sadness, happiness, anger, worth. A devoid of; energy, motivation, adrenaline. For myself, cutting was my way of feeling something, of feeling anything. Reminding myself that I was capable of feeling. 
My MD described depression as this;
“Depression is caused by a lack of an enzyme in your brain. Think of your brain as a water tower, and when you have depression, the water tower has a crack. Now, during the day, you use water from the tower and at night the water is refilled (with sleep). When you have that crack, the water is never quite as full as it once was and the body is constantly trying to fill it up. (which is my theory as to why people suffering from depression are always so tired, we’re trying to re-fill the tower.) The problem with depression is that there is no test to figure out which actual enzyme you might be missing. There isn’t one enzyme that causes depression. Anti-depressants act as chameleon enzymes for your brain. They fix the leak and fill in the spaces of the missing enzymes. Sometimes, people can take the anti-depressants for enough time to trick the brain into producing the missing enzyme, therefore curing the disorder. Sometimes they don’t.”
I think it’s a great description, and it made a lot more sense to me when described like this, even as someone in a medical field. 
Now the title is depression and tattoos, so what does one have to do with the other? For me personally, they have everything to do with each other. 
I have nine tattoos and recently started a relatively large, thigh piece. When asked why there, I started telling people “I always have liked thigh tattoos” or “it’s a good large surface area for art” or “I can still cover it up for 8 months-ish out of the year”. While those are all truths, it is not THE truth. I did it because I have scars I want to forget. 
I have fought the part of me that caused me those scars, I am conquering it and I want to be able to look down and not lose my stomach every time I see those little white lines in the sun. No one else would see them at the first, second, or even third glance, but I do. Every time. I want to take the pain I caused myself and those around me and make something beautiful instead. 
What really hit home when that tattoo gun hit my skin, was how incredibly similar that tattoo pain felt to cutting, and this is where it clicked for me. I may be on medication that helps me get out of bed, go out and be social, smile, laugh, and be able to say “yes I’m sad but that’s okay, I’ll be happy soon,” but my tattoos are what’s really there to help me feel. 
If I go to someone else that has tattoos and we discuss how “addicting” the pain of getting a tattoo is, there’s nothing taboo about it. Every so often I get that itch. Anyone with more than 2 tattoos knows what I’m talking about. The “I NEED to get another tattoo soon or I’m going to go CRAZY” itch. The need to feel those needles on your skin and the patterns and colours they leave behind. 
Now try talking to someone about how addicting the pain of cutting is, and everyone gets awkward. It’s awkward to talk about self harm or how good the pain feels when it’s happening. Seeing the lines and the red colour left behind on your skin. The adrenaline flowing through you body as the fight-or-flight reaction tries to set but you just sit there and let it happen. You’re in control of something when you feel you don’t have control over anything else. 
When I started to get tattoos (at 18,) my need for cutting greatly diminished. I got lots of tattoos and piercings and the only time I really felt the need to cut was at times of intense emotional stress or chaos in my personal life. The pain of getting inked and having metal shoved through various parts of my body, was bringing me the adrenaline I usually experienced through cutting. Now, this is only my perception, all of these experiences and thoughts are extremely personal to me and may not strike a chord with anyone else on the planet. I may be crazy to 99% of the people that read this. People in a similar situation to mine may say that tattoos feel nothing like cutting, and then some may agree. Who knows?
It has been over 2.5 years since I last felt the need to, or actually picked up a blade. I chose the medicated route because I needed help and I needed it fast or my relationship was going to fall apart. (For any family reading; not coming to you has nothing to do with lack of trust, or love. It in fact, has never had anything to do with you. It’s a very “it’s not you, it’s me” situation.)
I will end with this second disclaimer;
SELF HARM IS NOT OKAY. You are not the first and you won’t be the last that turns to a blade, so you never need to feel that you are alone. 

See a medical professional; Medical Doctor, Registered Holistic Nutritionist or Natural Doctor (if you want the organic means of assistance,) or a Psychotherapist.
You are NEVER alone. 

You are LOVED. 

Stay Strong. 

Always Keep Fighting. 
Mental Health Hotline 1-866-531-2600

Crisis Hotline 1-888-609-7353

Suicide Hotline 1-800-273-8255


A Journey in Health; Depression and Tattoos

Wednesday Witchstagram – amethystscars

The interview with @amethystscars

Hi Danielle,
Sydney here from @amethystscars!

Here are my answers from the interview you sent over.

I hope they’re not too long – but feel free to shorten if you need!
I’ve also attached photos just of me, and some of my altar and tarot decks, again use as many or as little as you need!
Thanks again for the profile! Let me know if theres anything else you need!
All the Best,
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Do you have a “name” for your craft? Or do you follow a certain path?
Is it too millennial of me to say that I don’t believe in labels? (lol) I guess I can most closely relate to eclectic witchcraft. For me, it’s always about what I connect with. If I can’t feel or find that connection then I can’t authentically practice it, at least in that moment. Right now Tarot, Astrology, and Crystal Work are at the center of my craft. They’re the most guiding in my life and I strongly believe in their properties to maintain self-care. Self-care is the most important path I follow tbh.
How did you find your path? What called you to it?
I actually started by studying Wicca. I had gone through a HORRIBLE breakup and felt completely lost in who I was. Wicca and witchcraft had always been an interest of mine, but never something I spent the time to explore whole-heartedly and this turned into the perfect time to do so. However, I became disheartened after realizing that Wicca wasn’t for me early on. That said, I was lucky enough to come across a witch who told me that you don’t have to be Wiccan to practice witchcraft and that changed everything. After recognizing that truth, I instantly felt that I had found myself. Raised in a Mexican-Catholic family there were just some beliefs I couldn’t fully hold in Wicca even though I don’t identify as Catholic anymore. And once that was let go of, I was able to embrace everything else that I had felt connected to. Basically it was a long journey that started with a shitty guy, but ended with an incredible part of who I am today.
Are you open about it with friends/family?
-I actually have a very small family. I just have my two moms, one is Catholic and the other actually claims psychic abilities but she works with Spirits. I really don’t share much with either but for very different reasons. As for friends, I have a small community that I can share it with openly, another batch that know its part of my life, and another that has really no idea. It varies depending on trust.
Why or why not?
-I don’t share much with my mother who is Catholic as she really fears it and I know she doesn’t want it to be something I “pursue”. My other mom’s abilities are one’s that I guess I in turn fear to engage in. I’ve had experiences with spirit work that I’m not very comfortable with still and she can tell when I’ve been practicing (literally anything) when I come to visit which totally freaks me out in terms of those experiences I mentioned. Even though she practices light work now, she’s had some very dark things happen to her and I feel the need to separate my practice in order to keep my energy and self safe. 
When it comes to my friend group, the ones I share the most with are the ones who believe and practice too! They’re the best support system. From there I have friends who don’t practice anything but I know accept me so they get the inside scoop. And then there are friends who I don’t know well enough, trust enough, or simply don’t think would understand. I don’t always share with them. I believe in protecting your energy and its necessary for what we do. So if I feel that’s by not sharing this part of me, then I don’t think it’s a bad thing. 
Are there any other crafts, or paths, that you’re interested in exploring?
-Astrology and moon rituals are two that I already work with, but would really love to dedicate more time into. Astrology is just such an expansive topic in general I truly believe it takes lifelong study. I also would love to get into herb work. I’ve always seen myself growing into an older woman with an apothecary living the recluse lifestyle we dream about.
What is your favorite thing to do? (Eh; Tarot, crystal work, herb work, or whatever)
-By far Tarot. I’ve always felt connected to it, and believe that I had a gift with it early on. I’ve only seen myself grow more and more and its something that I just love to do. I started my page just to share that passion with others because its just so overwhelming for me, it needs an avenue to flow through. 
Do you practice with others or solitaire?
-Typically, solitaire. Although, recently, I’ve been able to connect with some incredible people who are all latinx and practicing in my area so we’ve started The Valley Brujas. It’s taken me a long time to be open to group work, and to a community for me. I have a large fear of controlling a practice to ensure spiritual safety so I do take a while to fully trust another’s intention before working with them. I’m an empath, I really hold tight to that whole self-preservation/protection theme in all areas.
Do you have a favorite author that is your go to for inspiration?
-Feminist literature. There is something about a feminist (of course female) author that honestly is the most empowering thing and emboldens me in my craft as an individual. I’ve been on the Janet Fitch, Roxanne Gay, Joan Didion, Chloe Caldwell, Rupi Kaur train. But god there’s so many more! Another recent great read was The Women Who Run With Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Eses. 
Do you have a favorite Instagram/Tumblr/Website you go to for knowledge or inspiration?
There are so many! Jeff Hinshaw, of @brooklyntarot is by far one of my favorite tarot readers on IG. He’s a genuinely great guy who uses his practice so authentically. I have a few crystals from him actually. Favorite feminist witch doctrine goes to @witchdoctorpoet. Witchy woman fashion inspo goes to @bona_drag. And overall aesthetic and informational pages I love are @sabatmagazine @oldeways @theewhitewitch. To name a few…
Are you willing to allow others to reach out to you to ask you questions?
Absolutely! I share what I know, and am always eager to connect with others who can share with me in all of this, and who can teach me even more.
Where do you hail from? *optional*
-Born and raised and thriving in Los Angeles.
Is there anything else you’d like to share?
My path is always growing and evolving and I want others to know that theirs will too. We all could use a little more kindness in this world, and if you know a new witch, or newly practicing tarot reader – be supportive! That said, be mindful about your communities, aesthetic based practicers can often be a negative impact on your energies and protecting yourself is important. 

Wednesday Witchstagram – amethystscars

Wednesday Witchstagram – hedydd

Today’s feature witch is @hedydd
Do you have a “name” for your craft? Or do you follow a certain path?

I’ve always described my witchcraft practice as “eclectic” – it sounds more honest to me, so to speak, since I’ve not being raised into a specific/strict pagan or spiritual tradition. However, my craft is mainly of hedgewitchery, green witchcraft and Celtic inspiration.

How did you find your path? What called you to it?

The Celtic culture called me through literature (books about Druids and Avalon and stuff…), music and even my birthplace (my town being of Celtic foundation). I began dabbling in green witchcraft and hedgewitchery when I came back home – having attended university in another city – and started spending more time in the countryside, closer to Nature and its cycles.

Are you open about it with friends/family?
I’d say yes, my family knows about my path and at the moment my partner and most of my friends are Pagan as well.

Why or why not?

Because I’ve always been firmly convinced that I wasn’t doing anything to be ashamed of. My family is pretty open-minded so they accepted my choices when they were persuaded that it was nothing dangerous. Hiding everything would have been too much struggle, and I already had anxiety issues for many other reasons!

Are there any other crafts, or paths, that you’re interested in exploring?

I’m fascinated by rootwork at the moment, I’d love to find proper teachers.
What is your favorite thing to do? (Eh; Tarot, crystal work, herb work, or whatever)
That’s a tough one, lol. I’d say crystal/herb work and pathworking.

Do you practice with others or solitaire?

Both. Sometimes I prefer being alone (mainly for little magickal works or divination) but most of the time I’m with my partner and/or our Circle.
Do you have a favorite author that is your go to for inspiration?

I have many, from Starhawk to Gede Parma. 

Do you have a favorite Instagram/Tumblr/Website you go to for knowledge or inspiration?

I find my whole Instagram feed inspiring, I can’t pick just one!
Are you willing to allow others to reach out to you to ask you questions?

Sure, I’d love to hear from anyone!

Where do you hail from?

I’m from northeastern Italy, I live among the mountains known as the Dolomites.
Is there anything else you’d like to share?

Sharing personal stories and experiences from the community it’s a great idea! In my country many baby witches and newbies struggle to find other people to share and/or compare their path with, so the more other Pagans share, the better!

Wednesday Witchstagram – hedydd

A minor introduction to Astrology

There are two types of people in the world, those who believe in the science behind astrology, and those who don’t.

Those who don’t, don’t ever see it as a science and think of it more as something someone made up based on how many people they knew and when their birthdays ended up falling. Those who do believe, understand that there is years and years and years of study and calculations when it comes to the science of astrology and that it isn’t just determined by your sun sign.

Your horoscope/personality isn’t just made up of “oh I’m a Taurus and these are the characteristics of a Taurus. Just like your body is made up of many a cell and microorganism, your personality is made up of many heavenly bodies. Every planet and every zodiac is associated with your personality, it just happens to be that some may take precedent over others in how strong those attributes may be.

As there are twelve zodiacs, so too are there twelve what we call “houses” of your personality. Out of these houses there is four that are called the angular houses;

-Sun sign
-Moon sign
-Rising sing
-10th house sign

These houses each have areas of your life that they rule over, and coincide with the zodiac sign that falls into each one of them. The houses of function, as they are called, are as follows;

Sun sign – personal character/personality, house of life
Moon sign – latter part of life, house of endings
Rising sign – fortune of marriage, house of relationships
10th house sign – public recognition, house of substance

*the 8 other houses are called Succedent and Cadent respectively, and also fall into the 4 houses of function mentioned above*

I have found that this is the best website for discovering your 4 major aspects.

Mine would be as follows;

Sun Sign – Taurus
Moon Sign – Capricorn
Rising Sign – Scorpio
10th House Sign – Leo

My personality is Taurus, I am stubborn but reliable. I enjoy beautiful things such as music, clothing and art. (I use music as a therapist, I love great comfy clothing not necessarily good looking clothing, and I love to write and paint.) I can also be lazy and greedy. (Everyone has some negative qualities, *shrug*)

My Moon is in Capricorn which is the fourth house, more of a house of the future and what it might hold or how I might work around it. When the Moon is in Capricorn, these people tend to be ambitious and work towards a material goal. “Everything they do is with self-interest in mind” which I do find myself thinking lately and it greatly discourages me.

My Rising or relationship sign is Scorpio. This can be sometimes be read as a partner with Scorpio qualities or that is a Scorpio, but most likely it is read as what you desire in a relationship. The aspects of a Scorpio is a high emotional and sexual drive, someone who goes all-in and doesn’t usually “half-ass” anything.

My 10th House sign is Leo, this house rules work and how people view you. Leo’s tend to be generous but also over-confident and arrogant which can rub people the wrong way (I’ve done that a lot at work…oops…)

None of my zodiac signs are in their natural houses (as they all have houses that they would naturally rule and therefore the aspects of them would be much stronger. The aspects are still quite strong in my life and that is because they are all apart of my angular, or primary, houses.

There are obviously the either other houses and they each have their own meaning that coincides with whichever zodiac and planet is in each one for you.

I am barely scratching the surface on my own natal chart with the knowledge I have gained from Astrology for Beginners by William W. Hewitt, and I can’t do much else with my natal chart until I receive it, (provided the free offer in the book still stands.) All the information in this post has come from his book, that has been sitting on my shelf for far too long and I can’t believe I just opened it now! Click below to get your own copies.


This blog post has been written to try and help those conquer their retrograde selves or fears, which will be discussed in another post as we have FIVE plants in retrograde over August and September!!

Love & light my friends

xo D

A minor introduction to Astrology

Wednesday Witchstagram – thewitchbone

This weeks feature is @thewitchbone
I particularly like her account for all the Tarot and I love reading Tarot!
Today’s Wednesday Witchstagram is @thewitchbone!
Do you have a “name” for your craft? Or do you follow a certain path?

I’m a Kitchen Witch, I like to dabble in a little bit of everything.
How did you find your path? What called you to it?

I’ve been into witchcraft ever since I was little. I’ve always been interested in tarot, crystals, and the occult.
Are you open about it with friends/family?

Yes, my family knows I’m a witch and a tarot reader.
Why or why not?

-hey find it interesting for the most part, and thankfully there are no negative feelings about it.
Are there any other crafts, or paths, that you’re interested in exploring?

Astrology is another huge passion of mine.
What is your favorite thing to do? (Eg; Tarot, crystal work, herb work, or whatever)

Crystals and tarot mostly.
Do you practice with others or solitary?

I practice my craft solitary.
Do you have a favorite author that is your go to for inspiration?

Stephen King!
Do you have a favorite Instagram/Tumblr/Website you go to for knowledge or inspiration?

All of the amazing witchy instagramers!
Are you willing to allow others to reach out to you to ask you questions?

Of course, always!
Where do you hail from? *optional*

Winchester, Ohio

Wednesday Witchstagram – thewitchbone